In one ear and out the other

It’s odd how many thoughts I had ready to jot down as a journal entry last night as I was enshrouded by insomnia — politics, random babble, defense of insecurities, attacking paranoia’s, etc, etc, etc….

And all of them have fallen out of my head and become chewing gum on the sidewalk of life — unable to be resurrected.

SO why am I typing up these trivial journal entries right now? I’m wondering that myself, I know others wondered that during their tenures on Der Stonegauge and I know others that read this journal probably get to that point where they wonder “What the hell is supposed to be entertaining about this?”

Well, it’s not for you (depending who is reading this), it’s for me.

That’s something I keep forgetting when it comes to writing down stuff — it was an escape from a lot of vileness and a lot of pain for a time and I am indulged by the pain and the vileness once again. The only problem is my collected thoughts that should make up something entertaining when amassed as written words amount to jack shit right now. And I hate Jack Shit, his breath smells.

I watched The Two Towers today and I was fairly disappointed at how the story turned. I mean, certain suspicions of mine were confirmed and other parts of the story just didn’t hold me like The Fellowship Of The Ring did. SO much going on, spread out, and so little time to tell the tale…

Then again, maybe I am just too f’n harsh on movies?

I also saw another Occupational Therapist today. I’ve seen 3 who have critiqued me in certain things since I got out of the hospital last week. This guy had me doing routine, trivial stuff and you know what? My legs couldn’t take it. Shortly after he left, I collapsed on the floor — my leg giving out much like it had just after I saw The Matrix Reloaded.

But in a lot of ways — it was GOOD that happened. Every time I’ve been working with someone, the tasks put in front of me have failed to challenge me. This guy made it difficult in a assessing way and I needed to put myself to task with his requests.

Question for anyone who wants to answer: Do you do something that another person seems fickle in response to, or wait until they show more enthusiasm (if ever) about the idea?

5 Comments to In one ear and out the other

  1. Sarah says:

    is the question about me?

  2. John says:

    Question in general, Sarah.

  3. Mel says:

    Well let me see. I think this question can be situational. I mean if it is just something simple that doesn’t take much energy or time to do then I would say don’t wait. If it is something important or may take a little work I would talk to the person again about why they are being fickle or just wait.

  4. Finn says:

    Sounds as if you are only doing it for their enthusiasm, in which case, don’t do it if they don’t want it. But if it is something you want to do despite their lack of enthusiasm, well darlin, it’s your life.

  5. John F says:

    I lied, the question was about you, Sarah. Avoiding and putting off and coming off fickle at the time I wrote this — that was you ina nutshell and continues to be so.